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About Me Member Illustrator ray5320836/Male/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 5 Years
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with a capital "t".

Sat Sep 19, 2009, 4:09 PM
okay, let me think here.

my former printer/scanner combo doesnt work with my new computer. i have a cheap printer that is vista compatible, but no scanner. not that it matters since i havent been able to draw from quite some time now.

sometimes i actually almost feel like drawing. a glimmer, an echo, of that childhood joy whispers in my heart. or, at least, i think it does. nothing comes of it. the water chakra is blocked. i literally have permanent damage to my sacral vertebrae at exactly that point.

mike kaluta says that i need to just push trough these lean times. keep trying, keep drawing even if i think its crap. but, honestly, i cant even stand the idea of looking at my own work. its all failure and pain and loss. its all something i cant do anymore.

what a wonderful education MIAD provided, eh?

tony diterlizzi says to draw every day. i wish i could just pick up a pencil and make the magic happen again. nothing comes. i dont hear the voice of the muse any more.

its been over a year now. maybe two since ive even tried.

what am i if not im not an artist anymore?

  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: the hum of the fan overhead
  • Reading: knights of the dinner table
  • Watching: desperate romantics
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: nit noi's beef curry whenever i can
  • Drinking: water

deviantID

I am a mammal and eater of pies. I possess a deep an abiding delusion of grandeur in which i am not a failed artist.

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: Houston, Texas, USA
  • Interests: roleplaying games, science fiction, fantasy art, comic books
  • Favourite movie: ever? there are far too many good movies...
  • Favourite band or musician: wow. you guys are big on absolutes arent you?
  • Favourite genre of music: easy: classic rock
  • Favourite artist: William Kaluta is my mentor. Tony DiTerlizzi is my hero, Ang is really super cool too
  • Favourite poet or writer: too many to pick just one
  • Favourite photographer: meh.
  • Favourite style of art: none. its like playing with puppies using automobile manufacturing robots.
  • Operating System: Vista
  • MP3 player of choice: Windows Media Player
  • Shell of choice: the nautilus ships of the mind flayers!
  • Wallpaper of choice: the snozberry flavored variety
  • Skin of choice: my own?
  • Favourite game: Fallout 3, Fable 2, Mass Effect
  • Favourite gaming platform: XBox 360 and PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: Invader Zim
  • Personal Quote: don't quote me.
  • Tools of the Trade: imported japanese blue mechanical pencil leads, and my trusty, lucky aluminum mechanical pencil.

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:iconflyingpigphoto:
thank you!

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:iconjosjac:
Again, Thanks for the :+fav: :floating:

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:iconjosjac:
Thanks for the new :+fav: :floating:

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I've made my own rules in life and I don't owe anything to anyone.
:iconjosjac:
Thanks for the :+fav: :floating:

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I've made my own rules in life and I don't owe anything to anyone.
:iconwildfotoguy:
Thanks for the Fav :thanks:

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Photography is art. It is the art of painting with light.
:iconjosjac:
Thanks for the :+fav: :floating:

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I've made my own rules in life and I don't owe anything to anyone.
:iconpeterlime:
Ray, I'm glad that you added me to your watchlist! :)

I hope you enjoy and be an active deviant :thumbsup:

Peter

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I'll keep posting new pics everyday. Add me to your watch-list and you'll see it in first hand

If you like my photo, :+fav: it and/or comment :D
:iconjanejayne:
Thanks for the :+fav:!:iconroxasfaceplz:

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Art can never exist without naked beauty displayed.
William Blake .
:iconjanejayne:
Thank you, so much, for the favs!

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Art can never exist without naked beauty displayed.
William Blake .

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